Discipline and I seem to have parted ways recently. I'm being a flaky blogger. I have not been training very much, if at all. It's been well over a week since I've ran and a lot longer than that since I've been on the bike. Yes, I've been using my hip as an excuse. But really - I just haven't felt like it. I've been eating badly and not sleeping. This seems to be a fall affliction for me. I had the same problems last fall and winter.
In theory, I love fall. It's It's supposed to be my favorite season. I love the food and the colors and the relief from the oppressive heat of summer. But I find as I get older that while I do love fall, a melancholy kind of sets in. I attribute it to my seasonal insomnia. But maybe it's more than that.
I realize that I'm not always the most disciplined person in the world. I tend to procrastinate with things I don't want to do. And you all know that I'm not a neat-freak. But this time of year seems particularly hard for me to get motivated to do the things that I don't have a problem doing the rest of the year. I wish I had an answer as to why this happens. All I know is I've been tired and haven't felt like doing much of anything lately.
I'm supposed to go on a bike ride tomorrow, despite my aching hip. I want to ride about 30 miles. But in all reality, I probably won't. I should just accept that whatever mileage I do is better than none. Assuming, of course, I actually get on my bike. We'll see.
Once I figure out what's causing my lethargy, I will be able to fix it. Until then, I'm just going to do the best I can.
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